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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Even Though I Know, I Don't Wanna Know. Yeah, I Guess I Know. I Just Hate How It Sounds
Ugh, I am so hungry right now. But I am fighting the urge to eat. Or at least trying. I have gotten so amazingly fat over this summer, and it is just disgusting and embarassing. I don't want to come back to school and be the girl who let herself go. Even I have looked at the girls who have come back looking worse after a summer and thought rude things. Yuck, I'm so sick of being fat.
Ok, so I looked like a complete idiot today, and now I wished I hadn't even called. It was suppossed to be this light-hearted friendly thing, and I tried so hard to make it sound like that, but I'm sure you saw it as just some pathetic attempt at flirting or hitting on you.
For the record, I was not asking you on a date. I was thinking of it the same as I do when I hang out with Avery.
You really don't like being around me anymore, do you? I can tell. Ever since that day, you have avoided me like the plague. I wish you wouldn't feel so akward, and make such a big deal out of it. Because I liked hanging out before, and you were always so much fun. But now you just act scared or like I'm an idiot. Whatever.
I'm sleepy. Time to go.
Posted at 11:01 pm by ac_repair_love
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GUOTS!!!
It's MY life!
Don't you forget....
"You know what you do to me..."
A guy like you should have a warning!
"This is the worst fucking toast I have ever had!"
"I'm looking for someone who I can depend on, and who will depend on me. And... I saw that in you."
"Man... this is what I want..."
"Oh, well, you winked at me and my pants caught on fire"
So here I am
And from the back of my mind
An image, a memory,
Another ghost
You won’t be coming back again
"You don't recover from a night like this..."
I always was one for proving people wrong
"God... I wanted to kiss you. I wanted to hug you. I wanted to take you home and place you on my shelf. But I can't..."
"You are just devine"
It's funny, because now I look back on that night, and I can see it with such clarity. I think about that night, and what happened. It was like you were begging me. You were begging me to love you; to not let you down. It was different than I have ever been begged with before. For the first time, someone was looking me right in the eyes, and pleading with me, and I knew that it was okay if I said no. It was okay if I let them down. Because I knew that no matter what choice I made in that moment, that they loved me. And that they would continue to love me, unconditionally. That is why I said yes. That is why I let you in, and did what I did. I did it because I knew that it would have been okay if I hadn't...
"Because, if you fall... you fall, man!"
"You are a dark chocolate with the cream filling..."
"It will always be there"
Just because I love him... that will never take away from how much I can love you. My heart is endless. And you will always be my everything, even if he is my something....
"I figure if a have chocolate then everybody will love me."
****: ha, you make me laugh
^^^^: you make me shwing
If all my days go wrong, I'll think about that night.
It went right.
"I think you are forgetting what we have. Or had... in your eyes"
People are often unreasonable
and selfcentered.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind people may
accuse you of ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are honest,
people may cheat you.
Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness,
people may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today
may be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have
and it may never be enough.
Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end
it is between you and God.
It was never between
you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa
Where I need to be...
Seaside, Oregon
Under a willow tree (in Spring)
Backpacking Europe
New York City
La Seine (at night)
Alaska
The countryside (any will do)
The mountains
"You're the worst fucking fire fucker I've ever met!"
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