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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
"Do You Want Me To Call You [Tomorrow]?"
[Shooting Stars]: Wanting A Nap
[Satellites]: Statue - Low Millions
I'm eating some asparagus soup that Sarah tried to make. It's boring. It needs salt and pepper.
I was supposed to call Sarah Price back like 2 weeks ago, and still haven't. I was supposed to call Rick and Chrissie to set up a double date about 3 months ago, and still haven't. I hate phones. And I really suck. Sorry.
I started training at Baskin Robins today. It was fine. The job won't be hard, I just have to memorize some stuff. I have to go to the Northtown store tomorrow for my first day. Shit. Oh, and looks like I have to work the afternoon of the 8th. Only for two hours, but that still puts a bit of a kink in the plans. But it's okay, we can work it out. We just need a lot of bus fare for that day.
I skipped the Cold Stone "audition". I just decided, whatever.
Anyways.
You are different. And I'm sure I am different towards you. We are different, than we used to be... We aren't really close anymore. We don't need to be to stay together and connected. It's automatic now, and there's never really much feeling put in it. It's not a spontaneous thing, where someone needs the other and then it happens.It is planned and schedualed, and that's the only thing there. is. Yeah... it's different. Last night was sad.
TV and soup time. Goodbye.
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GUOTS!!!
It's MY life!
Don't you forget....
"You know what you do to me..."
A guy like you should have a warning!
"This is the worst fucking toast I have ever had!"
"I'm looking for someone who I can depend on, and who will depend on me. And... I saw that in you."
"Man... this is what I want..."
"Oh, well, you winked at me and my pants caught on fire"
So here I am
And from the back of my mind
An image, a memory,
Another ghost
You won’t be coming back again
"You don't recover from a night like this..."
I always was one for proving people wrong
"God... I wanted to kiss you. I wanted to hug you. I wanted to take you home and place you on my shelf. But I can't..."
"You are just devine"
It's funny, because now I look back on that night, and I can see it with such clarity. I think about that night, and what happened. It was like you were begging me. You were begging me to love you; to not let you down. It was different than I have ever been begged with before. For the first time, someone was looking me right in the eyes, and pleading with me, and I knew that it was okay if I said no. It was okay if I let them down. Because I knew that no matter what choice I made in that moment, that they loved me. And that they would continue to love me, unconditionally. That is why I said yes. That is why I let you in, and did what I did. I did it because I knew that it would have been okay if I hadn't...
"Because, if you fall... you fall, man!"
"You are a dark chocolate with the cream filling..."
"It will always be there"
Just because I love him... that will never take away from how much I can love you. My heart is endless. And you will always be my everything, even if he is my something....
"I figure if a have chocolate then everybody will love me."
****: ha, you make me laugh
^^^^: you make me shwing
If all my days go wrong, I'll think about that night.
It went right.
"I think you are forgetting what we have. Or had... in your eyes"
People are often unreasonable
and selfcentered.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind people may
accuse you of ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are honest,
people may cheat you.
Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness,
people may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today
may be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have
and it may never be enough.
Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end
it is between you and God.
It was never between
you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa
Where I need to be...
Seaside, Oregon
Under a willow tree (in Spring)
Backpacking Europe
New York City
La Seine (at night)
Alaska
The countryside (any will do)
The mountains
"You're the worst fucking fire fucker I've ever met!"
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