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Thursday, October 13, 2005
A Boy For Each Day Of The Week. Only One I Can Love All Seven...
1. I wish he could know that I cry over him. Still. Which is so unexplainable and weird, because there is no reason for it anymore. We have been over for so long. But I do. I wish he knew that.
2. I feel so misplaced around him. I don't know what to say or do when I see him. Yet every day, without fail, we meet after school. Sometimes the boyfriend is there, and sometimes he's not. Every day it's a new struggle, and every day is passed off as if things were still the same. They aren't.
3. I'm afraid that if that boy keeps giving me that look, I won't know what to do with myself. I blush everytime I get that wink from him. I know I say he's like a brother, but c'mon, can any girl really resist that perfect smile?
4. I miss seeing your face in the hallways. Why did you leave? Was it really that bad; did you really need out? Did it have anything to do with me, or are you long over that? For all the times that I hated you, I miss you. And for all the times that I wanted you gone for good, I wish you were here again. I've almost forgotten the contours of your face...
5. When I see you hanging out with another girl, flirting with another girl, I am glad that I am not her anymore. I feel sorry for all your next victims. You are a hunter. I just hope that pretty little girl knows to stay out of your way.
6. Did my stomache actually flip? Did I actually enjoy talking to you? Did I actually think about inviting you to coffee one of these days?
7. Don't go back to her. That is all I have to say. Don't go back. You will always regret it. I will never forgive you...
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GUOTS!!!
It's MY life!
Don't you forget....
"You know what you do to me..."
A guy like you should have a warning!
"This is the worst fucking toast I have ever had!"
"I'm looking for someone who I can depend on, and who will depend on me. And... I saw that in you."
"Man... this is what I want..."
"Oh, well, you winked at me and my pants caught on fire"
So here I am
And from the back of my mind
An image, a memory,
Another ghost
You won’t be coming back again
"You don't recover from a night like this..."
I always was one for proving people wrong
"God... I wanted to kiss you. I wanted to hug you. I wanted to take you home and place you on my shelf. But I can't..."
"You are just devine"
It's funny, because now I look back on that night, and I can see it with such clarity. I think about that night, and what happened. It was like you were begging me. You were begging me to love you; to not let you down. It was different than I have ever been begged with before. For the first time, someone was looking me right in the eyes, and pleading with me, and I knew that it was okay if I said no. It was okay if I let them down. Because I knew that no matter what choice I made in that moment, that they loved me. And that they would continue to love me, unconditionally. That is why I said yes. That is why I let you in, and did what I did. I did it because I knew that it would have been okay if I hadn't...
"Because, if you fall... you fall, man!"
"You are a dark chocolate with the cream filling..."
"It will always be there"
Just because I love him... that will never take away from how much I can love you. My heart is endless. And you will always be my everything, even if he is my something....
"I figure if a have chocolate then everybody will love me."
****: ha, you make me laugh
^^^^: you make me shwing
If all my days go wrong, I'll think about that night.
It went right.
"I think you are forgetting what we have. Or had... in your eyes"
People are often unreasonable
and selfcentered.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind people may
accuse you of ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are honest,
people may cheat you.
Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness,
people may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today
may be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have
and it may never be enough.
Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end
it is between you and God.
It was never between
you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa
Where I need to be...
Seaside, Oregon
Under a willow tree (in Spring)
Backpacking Europe
New York City
La Seine (at night)
Alaska
The countryside (any will do)
The mountains
"You're the worst fucking fire fucker I've ever met!"
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