Ugh, I am so hungry right now. But I am fighting the urge to eat. Or at least trying. I have gotten so amazingly fat over this summer, and it is just disgusting and embarassing. I don't want to come back to school and be the girl who let herself go. Even I have looked at the girls who have come back looking worse after a summer and thought rude things. Yuck, I'm so sick of being fat.

Ok, so I looked like a complete idiot today, and now I wished I hadn't even called. It was suppossed to be this light-hearted friendly thing, and I tried so hard to make it sound like that, but I'm sure you saw it as just some pathetic attempt at flirting or hitting on you.

For the record, I was not asking you on a date. I was thinking of it the same as I do when I hang out with Avery.

You really don't like being around me anymore, do you? I can tell. Ever since that day, you have avoided me like the plague. I wish you wouldn't feel so akward, and make such a big deal out of it. Because I liked hanging out before, and you were always so much fun. But now you just act scared or like I'm an idiot. Whatever.

I'm sleepy. Time to go.