I miss you even more now. Because I can relate to her now. Does that seem weird? I know what she had to go through; I am experiencing it now. And that makes me want you here, so that things aren't so off balanced. Greedy, yes. But I just didn't know before how strange of a situation it was.
I keep wondering about something. I keep wondering what it could have been like.
Another thing has been creeping up into my mind, which is actually quite a scary thing. I'm worried, and I don't know if I have reason to be or not. Am I parinoid, or is my mind telling me something that my body can't yet? And if it's true, would I really do that? Would I tell anyone? I wonder how he would have felt if he hadn't been told, and then one day found out. Would he have been mad, or devestated, or would it have really made much difference at all? I don't know...
I need you.
